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Halloween aged 14

Halloween when you’re 14….is more relaxed

  • cos i TOLD myself last year i wouldn’t be trick or treating so i had no deciding to do.
  • we didn’t decorate the house – that’s a bit babyish now – although i am not sure if we should not to make it FEEL like Hallowe’en
  • i NEVER wore false faces cos they annoyed me, they itched, and whenever you breathed it got STUCK in there-YEUCH! i hated everything about them!
  • we are NOT going to the fireworks cos they are rubbish to me. FIREWORKS are always the same. So i don’t get why you’d go and get into traffic and go try to get a spot to see. I don’t get the point really.
  • i don’t go to discos. i do have friends but discos aren’t my thing. There is a lot of peer pressure and boy-girl things at them. And i’m not pushed on that.
  • i amn’t planning to do much really then. So i have maybe outgrown Halloween BUT i definitely haven’t outgrown CHRISTMAS!

Halloween when you’re 13….the SEQUEL…was FUN!

we DID it…

and was brilliant fun

we chatted the girls next door and decided the 4 of us would go in kinda 60s rock n roll stuff.

so we grabbed bits from mum and out we went.

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it was great fun.

a bit disappointed in the number of people who weren’t answering their door!

but still got loads of nice bits.

Was definitely going to be my last year.

BUT then mum and dad called us in last night to see a Comedian – Jennifer Saunders on TV and SHE said that being a comedian was like NEVER growing up. You just keep doing the things that make you laugh. So its like always going out to play but you are an adult…

THAT sounds pretty good to me!

from Fionn

Halloween when you’re 13

This picture was last Halloween.

Halloween when you’re 12…

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I knew i was gonna dress up and trick or treat.

We went to a party in the Gaels club where we play gaelic and then came home and us and the girls next door went out and did Trick or Treat….we had great fun! We go with the girls every year and stay together and mind each other.

In our park the neighbours are really nice and they always say we have lovely costumes and they always give us LOTS of sweets

This year we just did the decorations yesterday. Mum doesn’t like Halloween decorations and she ends of forgetting they are there….and WALKS into them, looks like a right fool and shouts!

I do know that I do a lot of stuff that is not age appropriate…like still liking Sponge-Bob – THAT is never going to stop!  Usually i don’t care whether i look babyish or not, cos inside a lot of people are probably still loving but pretending they are too cool. I don’t see the point of pretending and missing out on the fun. You should just be yourself.

Some of my friends are going to discos and some of them are into girls. I amn’t into discos yet. It sounds very confusing still the whole relationship thing. I am definitely sensible and honest enough to say I am not into it. It seems really complicated and i am not ready for that yet. I like to just be me and i get on really well with girls and that’s all that matters. When they get into the whole boy-girl thing they suddenly seem to get awkward together. And a lot of peer pressure starts. I like it the way it is.

There is always a big fireworks display in town but i do NOT go near them. I think fireworks are really a bit boring. Cos once you have seen a display you have seen them all. They are all the same really and i don’t see what all the excitement is about really!

Now we are heading over to meet the girls to plan costumes for Trick or treating. Hannah is 14 and Megan is 11, so we are all similar ages. I have seen people NOT dress up and look really grumpy and definitely UNCOOL. so we will do it til we ALL agree we are too old!

I will post a picture tomorrow.

Bye

from Fionn

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i LIKE my ASPERGERS…it makes me different.

templegrandini KNOW i have said it before but i love the way Temple Grandin understands her aspergers or autism.

She knew it was ok to be different – it made her life harder and more confusing but NOT once she started to understand herself …and then work with her own special interests which was animals especially cows.

She learned how to manage in a normal non aspie world

i wouldn’t CHANGE what my aspergers makes me.

I think my aspergers makes me different and different makes me interesting and different is quite cool and good to be.

i don’t think of it as a disease or a disorder, it is just a part of me and not a bad part of me.

Actually i think it might be the BEST part!

i LIKE my whackiness.

If it is aspergers that makes me like that, then cool!

So don’t combat me.

I know all people have DIFFERENT kinds of autism  – I am only speaking about myself.

These are just a couple of things about me that i think aspergers is responsible for …is it similar to other aspergers??

  • false faces – i HATE them. I used to hate the feeling of it rubbing up on my nose. So it would go on for a second then off. Off in between houses when i was trick or treating.
  •  man-made fabrics – i HATE the feeling of some icky fabrics – sometimes mum has tops that feel “sensatious” and i wont hug her if she is. I will hug her if she is wearing something soft. I love soft cotton.
  • tight clothes – i like wearing tight clothes cos it adds PRESSURE. i like the feeling of pressure – like i am getting a “squish”. so it makes me feel sort of relaxed – like I am in a tight hug.
  • smells -i like some smells but  absolutely DESPISE others. Some things- especially FOOD smell disgusting or too strong for my likong. Once there was a time that my friend bought pasta and broccoli bake in school for his lunch – and even though he laughed i would NOT sit beside him that day. and i was being 100% serious. it was gross!
  • hair brushing- i DON’T hairbrush. i hated it when i was little and i had lots of curls and tats. now in the shower i wash it – not great close to my ears – then i don’t usually dry it well. I rub it quickly and not too hardly cos i don’t want it to hurt my head . So i come downstairs with my hair wet!
  • cold – i like to be warm. But i don’t feel the same temperature as the weather. In winter sometimes i go out with a short sleeved shirt. BUT i have learnt from experience that that is NOT good. Sometimes i have the same mix up with summer. I might go out in a hoodie and a pair of tracksuit bottoms when it is warm.
  • feet – i love the natural feeling of my bare feet on the ground. EVEN when i feel cold and mum is shouting “where are your socks”…cos it feels nice on the ground.
  • hats- i LIKE beanies if the fabric is ok. but i HATE caps – they annoy me to the extent that i take it off and try to stand on it to try to break off the hard part!
  • coats – i HATE big coats. I HATE being made to wear them. They look horrific too i think!
  • nails – i HATE getting my nails cut – especially my toes!
  • teeth – i HATE the feeling of unclean teeth AND i hate the feeling of unfresh breath. I refuse to look straight at someone who i know has not got great breath freshness.

most of these have to do with sensations…but they make me the way i am. and that is good, i think.

the world would be REALLY boring if we were all the same, and wired the same way.

BUT I DID HAVE A LOT TO LEARN ABOUT the NORMAL WORLD- my mum and dad had to teach me that being SOCIAL was a very, very important thing in MANAGING in the mainstream world. they STILL have to really!

aspergers – is really Learning ALL the time!

when i was this Fionn – i had so much things i was not able to do.Fermanagh-20130314-00186

 

i looked sad but i can’t really remember anything i can only remember how SCARED i was going in every day to school. I was SCARED of everybody more or less. Everybody else in the room seemed to be HAPPY like they understood each other – and i really did not!

mam and dad when i got diagnosed put a LOT of time cos they decided that they wanted the best chance for me to do my BEST in the non-aspergers world. At the beginning that meant they had to do things that i was NOT COMFORTABLE with but after a while i got used to them. They spent lots of time explaining life to you…and now i am SO GLAD that they did.

Aspies have in my opinion to LEARN the world…and how it is easy for other people, it IS NOT easy easy for aspergers. It’s like we haven’t got the instructions.

I had to learn to:

  • understand people
  • understand the importance of having friends
  • learn how to play
  • learn how to talk to people
  • learn what people didn’t like
  • learn to make eye contact
  • learn to manage smells i didn’t like
  • learn not to interrupt conversation
  • learn to take turns
  • learn to share
  • learn that the teacher is not my best friend
  • learn why to use cutlery
  • learn not to call my mum and dad by their first names.
  • i had to learn to understand emotions
  • learn family tree – that my mum was always my mum – never my aunty
  • learn not to talk about my things all the time
  • learn not to chew everything – like toys
  • learn what people mean what they say something
  • learn the difference in laughing at and laughing with
  • learn not to give up when something was a challenge.
  • learn sarcasm
  • learn idioms
  • learn what is considered racist, polite – even if i don’t agree
  • learn when friends SHOUT they don’t mean they hate you
  • learn not to knock people down if they are in your way
  • learn not to trip on every step!
  • and most importantly learn about myself.

i am SO SO GLAD that now i am a boy – who still learns new situations – but who understands himself, is HAPPY, and gets the world. i LIKE being different!…i LOVE it :)

i have friends

i am in a football team

i am confident

i am happy to be myself – and to explain myself to other people.

i am GLAD that my parents THOUGHT like Temple Grandin…and kept working with me! :)

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and as Temple says, 

 

Chronic Illness, working and recovery days

helenhamill:

Chronic illness and recovery days. For those who do understand xx

Originally posted on lovemylifeanyway:

When you have a chronic illness you lose the control over your body, your physical wellness, that you used to take for granted.  One particular problem I have is balancing work, rest and everything else.  It would be ideal if I could work four or five days a week and then have enough rest time to ease off my symptoms so I could continue working happily the next week. Of course, this presumes there are only two things to consider, work and rest.  There are many more things to consider obviously and that is one part of the problem.

Energy is very limited in my life.  It is very easy to “overdo it”. Sometimes five days of work is too much.  If I encounter extra stress, a night out, an after-work work commitment or a sixth day of work or effort on the sixth day (say, a child’s birthday party…

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aspergers is like learning ALL the time!

aspergers – learning ALL the time!

 

aspergers – is really Learning ALL the time!

when i was this Fionn – i had so much things i was not able to do.Fermanagh-20130314-00186

 

i looked sad but i can’t really remember anything i can only remember how SCARED i was going in every day to school. I was SCARED of everybody more or less. Everybody else in the room seemed to be HAPPY like they understood each other – and i really did not!

mam and dad when i got diagnosed put a LOT of time cos they decided that they wanted the best chance for me to do my BEST in the non-aspergers world. At the beginning that meant they had to do things that i was NOT COMFORTABLE with but after a while i got used to them. They spent lots of time explaining life to you…and now i am SO GLAD that they did.

Aspies have in my opinion to LEARN the world…and how it is easy for other people, it IS NOT easy easy for aspergers. It’s like we haven’t got the instructions.

I had to learn to:

  • understand people
  • understand the importance of having friends
  • learn how to play
  • learn how to talk to people
  • learn what people didn’t like
  • learn to make eye contact
  • learn to manage smells i didn’t like
  • learn not to interrupt conversation
  • learn to take turns
  • learn to share
  • learn that the teacher is not my best friend
  • learn why to use cutlery
  • learn not to call my mum and dad by their first names.
  • i had to learn to understand emotions
  • learn family tree – that my mum was always my mum – never my aunty
  • learn not to talk about my things all the time
  • learn not to chew everything – like toys
  • learn what people mean what they say something
  • learn the difference in laughing at and laughing with
  • learn not to give up when something was a challenge.
  • learn sarcasm
  • learn idioms
  • learn what is considered racist, polite – even if i don’t agree
  • learn when friends SHOUT they don’t mean they hate you
  • learn not to knock people down if they are in your way
  • learn not to trip on every step!
  • and most importantly learn about myself.

i am SO SO GLAD that now i am a boy – who still learns new situations – but who understands himself, is HAPPY, and gets the world. i LIKE being different!…i LOVE it :)

i have friends

i am in a football team

i am confident

i am happy to be myself – and to explain myself to other people.

i am GLAD that my parents THOUGHT like Temple Grandin…and kept working with me! :)

Fermanagh-20130312-00165

 

 

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aspergers – learning ALL the time!

helenhamill:

aspergers …learning all the way through life.

Originally posted on autisticandproud:

aspergers – is really Learning ALL the time!

when i was this Fionn – i had so much things i was not able to do.Fermanagh-20130314-00186

i looked sad but i can’t really remember anything i can only remember how SCARED i was going in every day to school. I was SCARED of everybody more or less. Everybody else in the room seemed to be HAPPY like they understood each other – and i really did not!

mam and dad when i got diagnosed put a LOT of time cos they decided that they wanted the best chance for me to do my BEST in the non-aspergers world. At the beginning that meant they had to do things that i was NOT COMFORTABLE with but after a while i got used to them. They spent lots of time explaining life to you…and now i am SO GLAD that they did.

Aspies…

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aspergers – learning ALL the time!

 

aspergers – is really Learning ALL the time!

when i was this Fionn – i had so much things i was not able to do.Fermanagh-20130314-00186

 

i looked sad but i can’t really remember anything i can only remember how SCARED i was going in every day to school. I was SCARED of everybody more or less. Everybody else in the room seemed to be HAPPY like they understood each other – and i really did not!

mam and dad when i got diagnosed put a LOT of time cos they decided that they wanted the best chance for me to do my BEST in the non-aspergers world. At the beginning that meant they had to do things that i was NOT COMFORTABLE with but after a while i got used to them. They spent lots of time explaining life to you…and now i am SO GLAD that they did.

Aspies have in my opinion to LEARN the world…and how it is easy for other people, it IS NOT easy easy for aspergers. It’s like we haven’t got the instructions.

I had to learn to:

  • understand people
  • understand the importance of having friends
  • learn how to play
  • learn how to talk to people
  • learn what people didn’t like
  • learn to make eye contact
  • learn to manage smells i didn’t like
  • learn not to interrupt conversation
  • learn to take turns
  • learn to share
  • learn that the teacher is not my best friend
  • learn why to use cutlery
  • learn not to call my mum and dad by their first names.
  • i had to learn to understand emotions
  • learn family tree – that my mum was always my mum – never my aunty
  • learn not to talk about my things all the time
  • learn not to chew everything – like toys
  • learn what people mean what they say something
  • learn the difference in laughing at and laughing with
  • learn not to give up when something was a challenge.
  • learn sarcasm
  • learn idioms
  • learn what is considered racist, polite – even if i don’t agree
  • learn when friends SHOUT they don’t mean they hate you
  • learn not to knock people down if they are in your way
  • learn not to trip on every step!
  • and most importantly learn about myself.

i am SO SO GLAD that now i am a boy – who still learns new situations – but who understands himself, is HAPPY, and gets the world. i LIKE being different!…i LOVE it :)

i have friends

i am in a football team

i am confident

i am happy to be myself – and to explain myself to other people.

i am GLAD that my parents THOUGHT like Temple Grandin…and kept working with me! :)

Fermanagh-20130312-00165

 

 

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the science test conclusion

today was the day of my science exam i was worried about.

i went into the class, quite calm, as i knew everything, and revised my notes for twenty minutes.

so after about 20 minutes of revising, the teacher told me to put my books away.

he gave me the test and i looked at it. i do this to be prepared for any unexpected questions or things that might put me off.

i knew most of it, as science can also ask you to apply your knowledge to a situation.

so i got cracking.

there were a few questions that threw me, but i had looked through it before so i was prepared.

the hardest question was one i hadn’t covered and had no clue about. the question was: When the sun goes down, what direction does the oxygen travel in the leaf. i guessed an answer and said ‘it goes down’.

after the test, i am confident that i have a high-ish grade.

i have learned from this not to judge something before i do it, and to do my best at revision and to try not to panic.fionn 3

after the test, i talked about it with mum, and mum pointed out that i could have figured it out by going through the facts i knew. i suppose its almost like picking the right tool out of the toolbox.braintools

 

By Fionn